Random Ramblings: September 2015

Friday, September 25, 2015

Flashback

I was checking out my profile on Facebook yesterday and I came across this:

This is the quote I posted on Facebook when I first created my profile in 2007. It's amazing to me how that song almost became an anthem for my life over the last 8 years. It's more relevant today than it ever was.

I think I may need to pull this song up on Spotify today.

... Then you Stand...

Quote of the day

Monday, September 21, 2015

Confession

My favorite part of the day is the 25 minute drive to pick up my children from school, when I have total control over the XM radio. All the gangsta rap I can handle! Word...

Monday, September 14, 2015

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

The latest

I've been dealing with a low blood pressure issue for a year now. It's annoying because I never know when it's going to strike and when it isn't. It's an issue I deal with on a DAILY basis and it's actually gotten worse. I used to occasionally get dizzy if I stood up too fast. Now I get dizzy almost every single time I stand up.

Imagine feeling like your head is woozy, your legs won't cooperate and you have no control over your body. You feel powerless and you think today could just be the day that you actually fall down. Well that's happened already too. Falling down the stairs when you're home alone is a terrifying thing.

I finally have two diagnoses for whatever is going on with me: Neurogenic orthostatic hypotension and positional orthostatic tachycardia. In essence, my blood pressure tanks when I stand up and my heart beats as fast as it can to try and compensate for it. The result is an overworked heart and a scary prognosis.

Most people that have this condition are old. And die from complications. And that SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

I thought just getting a diagnosis would help because then I can start treating it. Nope. I have a long way to go. And hopefully the treatments will start working soon because I'm really terrified of my heart wearing out and needing a heart transplant. I have gotten a second opportunity at a happy life and I will be really pissed if this screws it up.

So please just pray for me. Just pray that I start feeling better soon, because I honestly haven't felt great in years. And everyone deserves a heart that works right.

My next round of tests is 9/18. Pray for me the. Too because I'm really nervous and not looking forward to what I need to get through. This isn't the first time I've faced something life threatening. But the odds are so much greater now.