I spent the morning getting caught up on work and reading my friends blogs to find out what I missed over the last few days. It was during this time that I came across a post from my friend Leah that just hit me the wrong way...
It was THIS post that she reblogged that did it.
While the post was supposed to be a high five to best friends, it hit me in the gut more than I thought it would. It made me realize that since Heather died, I don't have a "real" best friend any more. I mean sure, I have friends, just like the next person. But no one that embodies all of these things that this girl was blogging about. No particular go-to person to share everything with. And I think that's why I have felt SO ALONE for the last several years. There's a chunk of my heart that's missing and just can't be replaced. I honestly have needed my sister for so many things over the last 7 years and she's just...
gone.
You don't realize what a loss is until you lose your best friend.
Because most of the time, no one really wants to listen to my random ramblings and such...
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